KARMA

what is karma?
do you believe in karma?
how can it be called karma?

karma is a mixture of experience to learn about life and a pay back of a revenge...
karma is wen things happened to you as how u did to other people...
its like what u do u get back...
or...
to make evaluation of what should and what not to be done...
but how i games itself???

if u did something to some one,one day u'll get it back the same way u did to people...
its like putting urself in the shoe of the person u did bad to em...
this is to teach u a lesson...
it is a karma to u if u felt guilty or regret of doing it before...
or u felt the paint n made u think that "owh~this is how people feels bck then"

but there's another way of karma...

if u've been victimised before, u hate the person or u seem to cannot erase that memory about what had happened or u still hope for changes in the past,or keep asking of why does that had happened to you before, or left with unsatisfied feelings or keep questioning about it...
someday, karma will put u in the same situation, butin the other way round,that is u as the person who victimize another person to let u learn about rules of life...

get it?

okay...lets put it this way...

i onced in a relationship with a perfect guy for 1 year half...
im not ready entirely but i managed to stay loyal,commited,syg him n do evrything at my best!
im soo gratefull too...
he's handsome,brill,kaya jugak...and tatang me mcm minyak penuh...
sgt syg me that he'll gave up the whole world for me...
but at the end,
i spoilt things by ending it up...
as i felt that it seems like i had two different world,friends n freedom as 1 world, family and him as another and i cant seem to juggle all the way i want it...and things didnt go well that should not be elaborated here...i didnt have a clue that i shud or shud no do that...

then, i went having a relationship with this guy that swept me off my feet...
i crushed him since the first time i saw him...
i'll gave up anything to have him just like how my ex wuold do for me...
evrythings seems to work well...sweet n romantic...
suddently he told me that he cant go on...
im too manja n he's worried n long distance wont keep him relaxed if having me in a relationship...
bla3 excuses that didnt seem to be as relevant as logical thinking could define...
i know that this is karma for me...
and that the last time was wrong! i shud not do that to him!

i've learnt a lesson here...
i regreted but i moved on...
clarified that i do regret for hurting my ex's feelings...but i still hope n question of the unfairness fate between me n the second guy,i proceed life...


i met another guy that i decided to date but nothing serious...
he seems to tried hard to convince me...
so i gave him chance o prove..but at the moment i wanted to trust him n starts to get things into next level,he crumpled that chapter... nothing wasted...life is at a pitstop~

here, im victimised by this 3rd guy...
there will be karma for him,
indeed, ive seen that karma happened to him as well...
as for me, i shall learn new things in life...
this is experience...


i grew wiser...
but then i met this guy who i fall for entirely...
i told myself not to put evrything all out this time...
that is one of life rules....


he was broken into pieces as his previous relation had put him as a prey...
he wasnt done about it just yet...
but i determined to be by his side to cope with the pain n things goes on really sweet...
evrything was fine n works well...
but i knew...
deep inside he's still hoping...still bleeding as he keeps questioning and asking "what if"...and "why?"...

he had been victimised before and it wasnt fair for him before...
this time karma put him in the other way, that is putting him at he place where the person who victimized him before...
that is to test him whether he had learnt his lesson on which is wrong and which is right...
at time he was the victim...he knew that its not fair for him to be done that way...
so he should know how to evaluate his desicion by now...
or everything in his life meant nothing but just a waste of time that he never learnt a thing...

karma is also a test to see does the grudge in u had put u to its experience to learn which is right n which is wrong...

if u do it wrongly, one day u'll regret...
but if u dont, then, that karma is meant for someone else to learn about this life...
maybe life is trying to convey us an important massage...

so now,let time decide and evaluate every actions made...