busy week...

ok2 back to the main agenda!

people...i'd just got back from HTAA hospital...
yes...
its already a week of clinical posting period
hmm....korg nak tau secara general condition of kitorg yg sengal2 ni dari stat posting sampai abes ni korg gi bacer blog kulliyah nursing iium aku...kat profile ader...ok???


here...its all about my heart speaks thousands words n for public to hear it out loud...
kutok2kan dari sesaper pon tu aku tak kesah ditunjukkan ...(PEACE!)

i was assigned in morning shift for today and its our second week and that its my 4 other colleques n my first day in medical female ward...
as we stepped in the ward...the cubbicles seems quiet and dull...
there were empty beds,occupied by either with patient with not so severe condition or (i dont know how to put it into words) too severe...erm...sangat2 severe...

so pagi tadi was my first n worst experience so far...
i assist a wound dressing procedure whereby a makcik was sent in back to hospital as her pressure sore got infected ...fter she was sent home for a week period ( so korg... jaga la mak bapak korg k? aku buat dressing nanges kot!~ayah...mama...kakak tamau mama ayah jadi mcm tu...) and swells severely...enuff said...i shall not describe it here la...nanti tak lalu makan...

dressing procedure tu kena cuci luka...makcik yg aku assist dressing pagi tadi...dah la asyik terpanggil2 nama anak dier IDA ...her wound siyap terkeluar2 daging kat sacrum...(ni ok lagi...sorg lagi patient aku masuk bagi kidney dish kat diorg2 yg tgh buat procedure tadi siap nampak sacrum!clear cut tulang putih kalau angkat blakang dier!!~)
the smell of a swelling wound or should i say nanah2 yg da nak busuk luka kat exposed daging tu...it is soooo damn cloyying n terrible!bau tu lekat dlm tekak n dats the reason y i kept shut sbb wen i speak,teraser bau daging nanah tu...da minum makan tp that smell kip haunting me...waaaaa~

here,i have no intention to expose any bad about the patient but to show u people how challenging nursing is and that we should not look down to them...not because i'll becoming one...honestly...am not ending up as one...in a process converting da pon...

i also handle one single mother patient diagnosed as DM+multiple else disease...
makcik told me that her husband left went she stars to suffer her disease...and that her kids were all busy so no one come to visit her or event to buy her pampers...

i shut myself thinking deep...

IMAGINE MAMA OR AYAH WERE ADMITTED IN!)TO WARD...
tuhan...
jangan la biar aku lupa diri dan abaikan mereka...
nauzubillah...

i recalled last wikend,a frens mummy,a doc as well,called me and asked me one good question! :
aunty nik: alya,so hows posting period?
hmm...stressfull and exhausting...
so wat have u learnt through out posting shifts?
alot of procedures,medical terms,various diseases and symptoms???(felt stupid)
no...about life...what valueble knowledge u've gained?
jgn lupa mak ayah bila mereka tua kah?
good...elaborate!
hmm...bila tua,kita tend to lupe and anggap diorg beban...hope i wont be like
dat...ader yg tak lupa parents tapi keadaan tak mengizinkan so i decide to jadi kaya
so later i'll make sure can afford o hire good nurses n doc at home to tak care of them
or i shall not let em duduk hospital kerajaan...
ok...wat about career?about companion?
hmm...i dont think i can commited to nursing...im tough and commited but i got tons
of responsibilities...this career is not for me...my siblings needs me...and they grow
fast...i should be there...companion???hmm...what?carik la laki yg bley jaga kita
sampai tua?is that what u mean?
thats just a view from one side in life another side is that we independent women shall
lead life as if we need no man...if there are man behind our back its a luck...we should stood up to care at times they need...be a good wife like ur mama...if u have a mindset of marrying someone canggup to take care of u sampai mati...esok2 if expectation u
sala...u'll be broken hearted and female maken lemah kalau ikot hati...mmg ikot hati
can never get u wrong but we female should stand strong these days!
i get it...(i adore my aunts...either they are single mother or with husband,theyre very
independent women...as for my mummy...she's the best wife u can never find else
where...pretty much like my youth time
stories on family,scewls,studies,siblings,and love...but she's wayy thougher)

SO PEOPLE...WE LEARN ALOT TROUGH LIFE...APER PON YG JADI...ITS APART OF LEARNING PROCESS...MAKA TERIMALAH SEIKHLASNYER.