im 21st on 8th

im getting older by age...
but getting siily-er by childishness or maybe stupidity?

its my bithday on 8th...
thoughtfull closed friends,mates and family did not missed the chance to wish 'happy birthday'
however,
deep inside i bleeds at every questions arised in my head...

WHEN?
WILL IT BE JUST LIKE I EXPECTED?
WHY?

i missed the first caller who called on my 20th birthday midnight...
every single seconds...
i do...
alot...


did 8th april means nothing? what about 14th of every months esp february?

i wished for nothing else but just a simple wishes,
showing that i do mean something,

i guess my 21st birthday wish will never come true...